sickness and stress

Well, I have been sick for a whole week now. I have no voice at all. My sweet Granny called me just now and I was trying to talk to her but we kept getting mixed up because she couldn't hear what I was saying. I went to the doctor last Monday and have been on antibiotics for a week and have only gotten worse. Most likely, I got so sick because I did not have time to step back and rest. Between school, commuting, gas prices, work, sickness, and daily life, I have breached my stress limit. Isn't it sad that the high gas prices are a stress unto themselves? When you commute and make peanuts at a job which should pay more, filling the gas tank becomes nightmarish.

I have already missed two days of one class but I may be missing tomorrow because I think I need to go back to the doctor. I have to keep telling myself that I can only do what I can do. But I hate letting people down and I've done so well in school lately, I would really hate for a dumb cold to ruin everything. Not to mention that I feel bad about missing work. I missed last Monday because I had gone to the doctor and he said to stay home, then I missed Tuesday because I had to do an observation for school. I went Wed, Thur, and Fri, but Friday they sent me home because I couldn't talk. So I would really, really hate to miss anymore. Not to mention that my friend Summer is getting married next Saturday and I am missing work on Friday for that because I am her matron of honor. And I am just thankful that Steven and I do not have children yet because there would be absolutely no way I would be able to handle everything. Of course, I wouldn't be a full-time student, commuting two hours a day, and working if I had children.

I am just really ready for the summer to be over. I never, ever thought I would say that. Summer has always been so great because of church meetings and no school, going to the beach, going to the pool, visiting family, etc. Of course, as an adult those things change but this summer is just abnormally burdensome. We can't go to church meetings or the beach because of money and gas prices, and there is lots and lots of school since I had to go full time.

Ok, so that all sounds depressing but the truth is, I will be overjoyed when I don't have to commute every single day in my very hot, unairconditioned car. Not to mention how much better it will be on our budget. :)

I promise my next post will not be so downtrodden. Unless of course, something catastrophic happens like all my hair falls out. adieu!

Last FAFSA!

I just filled out my very last FAFSA! I didn't even think about how it was my last time until I was done. How exciting is that?! It's a small step to graduation, but a step none-the-less. Only 14 months to go!

Last night I talked to my friend Luke. I hadn't talked to him since spring break. I love him so much. We were very close in highschool but really became close just after. Talking to him is so great but it also makes me realize how different our lives have become. He is in Ohio (about to graduate! yay Luke!) and will be moving to New York to begin his career as an actor. I am in Texas (still) and in school (still). Don't get me wrong, I love my life. It's just interesting to reflect on how people's paths cross and separate during a lifetime. He'll always be a friend I can call and someone I'll keep in contact with my whole life, I hope. I feel a tinge of sadness when I think of how far apart we are these days.

I do love my life, I want to make that clear. But every year about this time when the outside temperature is reaching eleventy-million degrees, I think of how I don't know if I can live in Texas my whole life. At this point, my family is here and that is the main reason I would not want to move. Of course, school for both Steven and me is here, and that's another big reason we live in Texas. But gosh darnit! It is so hot!!!! It also doesn't help that I keep watching "Under the Tuscan Sun" and dreaming of living in Bramasole on the the Italian countryside. Of course, as an ardent patriot, I could only live permenantly in the United States. Perhaps when I am a quadrillionaire, I will have a house in Tuscany.

I actually am content to live where we are for a few years. Our plan is to stay until Steven graduates. We are both very excited because he will start at Blinn going part-time in the fall. He's waited a long time to go to school. It was very strange but fulfilling having to enter on the FAFSA that both members of our household will be going at least half-time to school next year. It makes me feel that we are on our way!